Kindness

Kindness is an act of giving out of love. It is selfless. It brings out the best in humanity and restores our faith in this decadent world. Wherever there is a human being, there is an opportunity for kindness. You never know if you were placed there by Him for a time such as this - so don't walk away.

I had just watched the movie Pay It Forward and was completely inspired and touched by it. Then I discovered on tumblr that there was a Pay It Forward Day and a foundation and all sorts of stories attached to it. Granted that everyday should be a "pay it forward" day but what better time of the year than this to start if you haven't already.

Many years ago, I started a Charity Xmas tree in University for the sole intention of raising money each year for charities of our choice. I had an idea which I thought was impossible but my friends made it possible with their generous support. We handmade every single "ornament" that was sold and went on that tree. We used the money raised to buy food for the children of an orphanage and we gave them the rest of the donations.

Then, graduation happened. Work happened. People moved away and moved on. We forgot about the things we had done when we were younger and inspired. We felt we had more important things on our minds. Bills. Taxes. Promotions. Responsibilities. Adult life got thrust upon us and forced us to rearrange our priorities.

But seeing this movie, reminded me once more of how selflessly we gave when we were younger and there was less of "me". We had less but we gave more. We gave our time, our energy, our efforts. Our hearts. Expecting nothing in return.

I want to go back to a time like that. Where I can dream and have the courage and faith to turn my dreams into a reality.

I don't have a Christmas tree for charity this year. I don't have an institution or charity to work for. But I believe I can change something in my very own world. Kindness starts from within. Giving starts with us. And we can start with the people closest to us.

So this Christmas, as much as I love all things commercial about Christmas, spare a moment to think of what YOU can do for someone else. Do something unexpected. Challenge yourself. You never know who's day you might brighten, who's desperation you might relieve, who's life you might save. And then don't just think - do it. I know I will. :D

Heart vs Head

Love. It's the hardest thing to find and when you do find it, you're not sure if it'll last.

Emotions. The most vulnerable thing in the world. Take away all the money and wealth of a person in this world and it could not come close to comparing with the brokenness of a heart or a soul.

When one chooses love, do you choose with your head or your heart? Do you trust that its worth the risk or do you listen to your head that tells you of all the pain you'll be putting yourself through? Ultimately, is the love worth the pain?

I'm a practical person. I often choose with my head. But then that's where love isn't found. Times when I chose with my heart haven't fared well either. How does one balance the two?

It's the middle of the night and I sit here and wonder about things like love. *raise eyebrow* hm.

When

When you come home from work and all you wanna do is return to a pair of arms that will hold you.

When you've had a trying day and they know exactly how to make you feel better.

When all you feel like doing is crying and they know all they need to do is be there.

When you achieve the greatest thing in the world and all you want to do is share that moment with them.

When your idea of a wonderful time is laughing and gazing into their eyes and then falling asleep in their arms.

When you doubt yourself and they support you and encourage you and bring out the best in you.

When it becomes okay for them to see your vulnerability.

When you trust your heart in their hands with all your soul.

When you stay during stormy times just because what you have is worth fighting for.

When you wake up every morning with no fear that their love for you will never change for all eternity.

When they can love you and kiss you even when you're at your worst.

That's when. That's when you've found a love worth fighting for and worth keeping.

Fickle

I know I'm probably ranting from a place within me. I acknowledge that the following things I say next do not apply to every single men.

But men are fickle creatures. They change their mind so quickly and become hot and cold faster than a change in Melbournian weather.

I am annoyed when the general decency and etiquette of today's men have seem to evaporate into thin air. I don't expect much considering we are friends and not that there was any interest involved but I think most men today need to be re-educated on what it's like to treat a lady.

Everyone is so involved in themselves. So inward looking. That they cease to be aware of their basic common courtesy.

To that, I say grow up.

I don't like immature boys. I prefer real gentleman who knows how to treat a lady like one.

Crashing Cars

When you dream of crashing cars and losing control of cars all week you know your subconscious is trying to tell you something is wrong. I wake up in the middle of the night with dreams of crashing cars.

Sometimes I was the driver. Sometimes I wasn't. Once I actually smashed into the truck and dreamt my arm had fractured and was almost severed. I had no control over my hands.

It was scary.

But repeated dreaming like that? That tells me something is brewing in my subconscious. But what is it that I'm losing control of?

Dreamer

I dream of a thousand things. Even as a child, my head was always in the clouds. I would gaze at the skies and marvel at the clouds, the stars, the velvet sky at night. The world would whizz by me and I was lost in my thoughts.

I dream of the ideal. I dream of the future. I dream of all the things I could possibly achieve in this life. I dream of the unattainable.

I am blessed to be here at my age and be where I am at now. But I have a desire to achieve more. People inspire me. The world inspires me. Music inspires me. Love inspires me. God inspires me.

Driven by my dreams, I put my heart and soul to achieve more than I had ever dreamt. If I could reach and touch a thousand lives... if I could change a million lives... but I am blessed to work and change one life at a time.

If I could dance throughout life. If I could make people laugh and love their life. If I could give people a life worth living for and moments to live for.

I feel like I have so much to do and yet I wish I could learn faster.

Everything starts with a dream. Then comes the passion, strength and drive to achieve it. And when you do...the dream becomes reality and you can reach for the stars and change the world.

Take A Breath

We rush about our busy lives. Appointments. Deadlines. Meetings. Emergencies.

From the moment we open our eyes to the moment our head hits the pillow at night. You feel like you've done so much for the day. And yet, you can't recall what you did.

Every step feels rushed. Time equates money. Time measures efficacy. Time the benchmark of productivity.

Life starts to pass by in a whirl. Like a gust of wind. No time to stop. From one thing on to the next. Even sleep is like a rush.

The things you love begin losing its lustre. Like a cup of coffee without its aroma. Like a basketball that has lost its bounce.

Stop. Listen. Look. Breath.

Pause. Did you hear that? That's your heartbeat.

Pause. Did you see that? Life continues even when you pause.

Pause. Did you feel that? That's what it feels to stop and breath.

Sad

Tonight I'm a little sad. It bubbled forth unexpectedly. I had held it together for days. I didn't think about things. I didn't feel sorry for myself. I tried to act on positivity.

Exploring different facets and ideas in my mind. It kept me preoccupied.

Then catch me off guard, the loneliness and sadness descended upon me in a wave. People around me were none the wiser. I hide like that. All the time.

And then I come home. Now. And feel the sadness. Like an echo in my soul... a chasm that cannot be filled...