Dream

Sometimes I'm afraid to fall in love with a dream.

You're a dream in my heart.
You're everything I picture a guy should be.
But dreams don't last.
And dreams shatter.
Dreams seem to never hold their fairy-like quality.
They never seem to come true.

Hence, I pause.

Because I'm afraid to fall in love with a dream.

Determination

I'm back!!!

It's been a long 2 weeks. But exams are over and done with.

It's been nothing but sheer hard work for 2 whole weeks. With no distractions. Nothing but a total focus on the end result.

As I walked to my car one day after class I was struck by a thought. On how fierce I had a desire for this. I had a burning, consuming desire to get it over and done with. To achieve something else under my belt. To collect another accolade. It had been so long..

I had such fierce determination... I was gonna do it or die trying. It was an eye-opener. on how far I would go to get something I really wanted. I only wondered if I found the fire a little too late...

But it was all good. I have good news. I am now a holder of a postgrad degree. =)

3 hours sleep every night for a whole week. I survived. I did it. I was quite honestly THAT close to giving it up and walking away. It got to me. It did. I had never felt so underprepared. I felt the pressure and the stress that was unbelievable. Wasn't so much as expectation of others. But it was what I expected of myself. I am always tough on myself. I expect nothing less than to do my very best.

I told myself I was not a quitter. I had a dream. A great desire to succeed. By virtue of sheer willpower and determination, i actually pulled through.



So I say to all of you. Never underestimate what you can do. Search deep in your soul and look for that fire, that all-consuming desire and passion when you want something and then go for it. You'll be surprised at what you can achieve..;p

Realization

I'm beginning to realise that you have a trait that I don't like very much...

Shoes at the door

You never would have thought that a simple act of having shoes at your door could provoke such a feeling.

When you wake up and walk out of your room to see shoes at your door.
HIS shoes.
Not your brother's. Not yours. HIS.
HIS and HERS.

It portrays such an intimacy in my mind.
It's like you've invited this guy into your life.
Into your little sanctuary you call home.

But those shoes.
They mean something.
When once you're doorway was empty.
The home was silent.
Now they mean something.
Someone's waiting.
Someone's at home.
Someone's here for YOU.

It occurred to me how we walk by shoes in the doorway. Tons of shoes.
Sometimes, we forget how shoes at the doorway signify something special.
And we take them for granted and walk right past them without narry a thought.

But even shoes that don't belong to HIM. Belong to friends.
When you're alone, it's empty.
When you're friends are around and your life is full of love, plenty of friend's shoes at the door. Like at a party. Or a gathering. Or a girlie pow-wow.
How in the world did your doorway signify so much?

Startling isn't it?
Shoes at the door.
What a reflection of the relationships in our lives.


PS. I couldn't help myself. I had to post something up. And no. There's no shoes at my door at the moment. ;p It was just an observation that I had to share. =) And those shoes aren't mine. They were a picture we took of shoes belonging to a pair of friends long ago. ;)

Life is A Journey

I have so much to blog!! But I haven't got the time as I am cramming for exams. Saving them for later... =D

Life can be such a journey. When we open ourselves up then we find little learning experiences that shape you. Its an exciting time filled with ups and downs. I've missed that feeling. Having been insulated for so long...

God, I can't wait for this to be over and then I can resume everything that I love and MORE!